Mood: Still Purple
Mode: Study
Thoughts: Her..
You know how the saying goes: One man’s loss is another man’s gain. And Maxwell in this song knows what he’s lost. There’s not a day that goes by that he doesnt think about her. He doesn’t see why he has to let her go but at the same time he already has. The song is clear, he wants her to spread her wings. He wants her to be happy. He wants her to finally have some stability and security in her life. He wants her to be able to make plans for the future and not have to keep worrying that she’ll have this constant weight on her shoulders slowing her down. He wants her to feel like she doesn’t have to go through everything on her own and that she’s got someone she can lean on for a change. He wants her to have someone she can turn to, someone she can admire, someone she can be proud to be associated with, someone she doesn’t have to keep making excuses for or have to keep explaining away his faults and mistakes. He wants her to have all the things he knows she wants and needs. He knows it’s selfish of him to keep telling himself that he shouldn’t let her go just because he’s gotten to know her better than most people have and that his love for her will be enough to make things work. He knows he hurt her and assures her that time will heal her wounds and that time will help her forget him but deep down, he doesnt want her to forget him. Not ever. He doesn’t want her to only remember all the times that little voice inside her told her to walk away and she chose to stay. He doesn’t want her to see just how confused and conflicted he is over this whole thing. He doesn’t want her to so much as imagine that he sits around thinking about anyone else other than her. He doesn’t want her to give up on him and move on with someone else. He doesn’t want her to ever listen to ‘Pretty Wings’ and not remember the Blacksummers’night summer they spent together.
I feel him.
I’m sure she knows that things will work out and he’ll be back on his feet…he just needs some space to do it…everything falls into place in the end…Maxwell rocks…prettywings is a pretty powerful song…
Ai … how now?
Kipepeo: Maxwell’s music is powerful, indeed. Depending on where you’re at in your life, you can listen to songs like “This Woman’s Work” for instance and relate to it in a totally different way than you would have before. That’s pretty much what happened when I re-listened to “Pretty Wings” recently.
CB: its a deep song, almost identical to what I’m going through right now.
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