Day‭ ‬25‭ (‬Pretty Wings‭)

Mood:‭ ‬Still Purple

Mode:‭Study‭

Thoughts:‭ Her..

You‭ ‬know how the saying goes:‭ ‬One man’s loss is another man’s gain.‭ ‬And‭ ‬Maxwell in this song knows what‭ ‬he’s lost.‭ ‬There’s not a day that goes by that‭ ‬he doesnt think about her.‭ ‬He‭ ‬doesn’t‭ ‬see why he‭ ‬has to let her go but at the same time he already has.‭ ‬The song is clear,‭ ‬he wants her to spread her wings.‭ ‬He wants her to be happy.‭ ‬He wants her to finally have some stability and security in her life.‭ ‬He wants her to be able to make plans for the future and not have to keep worrying that she’ll have this constant weight on her shoulders slowing her down.‭ ‬He wants her to‭ ‬feel like she doesn’t have to go through everything on her own and that she’s got someone she can lean on for a change.‭ ‬He wants her to have someone she can‭ ‬turn to,‭ ‬someone she can admire,‭ ‬someone she can be proud to be associated with,‭ ‬someone she doesn’t have to keep making excuses for or have to keep explaining away‭ ‬his faults and mistakes.‭ ‬He wants her to have all the things‭ ‬he knows she wants and needs.‭ ‬He‭ ‬knows it’s selfish of‭ ‬him to keep telling‭ ‬himself that‭ ‬he shouldn’t let her go just because‭ ‬he’s gotten to know‭ ‬her‭ ‬better than most people have and‭ ‬that‭ ‬his love for her will be enough to make things work.‭ ‬He knows he hurt her and assures her that‭ ‬time will heal her wounds and that time will help her forget him but deep down,‭ ‬he doesnt want her to forget‭ ‬him.‭ ‬Not ever.‭ ‬He doesn’t want her to only remember all the times that little voice inside her told her to walk away and she chose to stay.‭ ‬He doesn’t want her to‭ ‬see just how confused and conflicted he is over this whole thing.‭ ‬He doesn’t want her to so much as imagine that he sits around thinking about anyone else other than her.‭ ‬He doesn’t want her to give up on him and move on with someone else.‭ ‬He doesn’t want her to‭ ‬ever listen to‭ ‘‬Pretty Wings‭’ ‬and not remember the‭ ‬Blacksummers‭’‬night‭ ‬summer‭ ‬they‭ ‬spent together.‭

I feel him.

4 thoughts on “Day‭ ‬25‭ (‬Pretty Wings‭)

  1. I’m sure she knows that things will work out and he’ll be back on his feet…he just needs some space to do it…everything falls into place in the end…Maxwell rocks…prettywings is a pretty powerful song…

  2. Kipepeo: Maxwell’s music is powerful, indeed. Depending on where you’re at in your life, you can listen to songs like “This Woman’s Work” for instance and relate to it in a totally different way than you would have before. That’s pretty much what happened when I re-listened to “Pretty Wings” recently.
    CB: its a deep song, almost identical to what I’m going through right now.

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